Sometimes being a parent can be so strenuous. Often times we tend to be our own worst critic, which just contributes to the stress. I cannot count the times I am overwhelmed with doubts and insecurities. I constantly question my capabilities as a mother. Even more so now. Why? I’ve yet to master caring for one child and now must learn how to tend to two. Discovering how to balance both boys has been difficult, to say the least. These past two weeks have been particularly challenging. Ethan has started to show multiple signs of colic and Elijah has entered into the question phase. Separately, these two things aren’t easy. Together they can be exceptionally frustrating. While one ear is being filled with a gazillion questions, the other is being drowned with uncontrollable cries then you look at the time and see that it’s only one o’clock (which means four more hours until your husband comes home). The frustration starts to sink in….
You’re frustrated because you’re feeling all alone.
You’re frustrated because there’s still food to be cooked and clothes to be washed.
You’re frustrated because you’re tired and hungry and probably stinky because you haven’t had the time to shower.
You’re frustrated because you cannot seem to find a solution to soothe your newborn baby.
You’re frustrated because you’re too overwhelmed to adequately answer your 4-year-olds questions.
So what do you do? You set aside your emotions and you sway your baby until he’s silent while answering each and every question your son asks. You do this for hours, you do this for days, you do this for weeks, you do this for months. But what happens to all that suppressed frustration? You stuff and you stuff and you stuff until eventually those emotions explode. And today, that’s exactly what happened to me. One second I was smiling then the next I was crying for what seemed like several hours.
Why am I sharing this?
I know that there is someone, who just like me, is too scared to say, “I need help.”
Don’t be ashamed to ask for assistance. Yes, you are more than capable of caring for your child/children. That is why God chose you. But you also need to take a break before you break. Stop stuffing. Stop suffering in silence. Set your pride aside, call a family member, call a friend or better yet fall to your knees and cry out to God for the Bible says, “Do not be anxious or worried about anything, but in everything [every circumstance and situation] by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, continue to make your [specific] requests known to God. And the peace of God [that peace which reassures the heart, that peace] which transcends all understanding, [that peace which] stands guard over your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus [is yours].” – Phillipians 4:6-7