Ellie’s Date

There was a knock at the door
Her heart began to race
She closed her eyes, “Relax, it’s just a date”
He knocked once more
She opened her eyes then rushed the door
Their eyes met
A moment she would never forget
It wasn’t the first time
But it was her favorite time
He had dark brown eyes and yet they were bright
Almost 6 feet in height
Olive skin and perfect teeth
But what made him most attractive was everything underneath
He was smart and strong and wise
He allowed God to guide
He saw beauty in just about anything
Atmosphere’s would shift because of the joy he’d bring
He loved adventures
He loved to explore
Oh what she would give for more…
More years
More months
More weeks
More days
More mintues
More seconds


She disappeared into her room
Away from her house full of guests
She closed her eyes
She took a deep breath
There she laid in the bed they once shared
Still in disbelief that he’ll never again be there
Mourning hadn’t kicked, at least until that day
The day she said goodbye to the man who changed her life in every way


Ellie Opens Her Eyes

Please wake up,” she hears him say
Who is this man?
She cannot recognize his face
“She opened her eyes! She opened her eyes!”
Instantly he dashes off out of sight
As he leaves, another person takes his place
Ellie could never forget this face
“Ellie, can you hear me?”
Her words muffled, her voice low
“Ellie! You had us worried you know? Why would you do this? I don’t understand….”
Aubrey’s words became faint
All Ellie could think of was that man
“Aubrey, who is that guy?”
“You don’t remember him? He hasn’t left your side”

Finally he returns, two doctors right behind him
They asked her questions and began exams
But Ellie can’t seem to take her eyes off the mystery man

Four hours later it was just them two
Ellie gestured him close and said, “I’m sorry. Do I know you?”

“It was like a scene from a horror movie
Except it wasn’t a movie, it was real life
And it was happening right before my eyes
I saw you speeding down the street
I stood there watching as your car took that leap
About an hour later you washed up on the beach
Another man spotted you and quickly called 911
I just had to see how it ended because I saw how it begun
I was here the day they brought you in
And every day after
My name is Emmett, Emmett Lancaster

Ellie and the Bride

The day had finally come
The day two people would become one
It would be a traditional wedding, down to a T
Well, all but one thing
The arches reaching the highest levels
The edge of the aisles coated in petals
The bridesmaids dressed in hues of blue
The church full of people, exactly 102
The soft smell of gardenia floating around the room
And waiting at the altar was the handsome groom
It was just about time for the ceremony to begin
And that’s when sadness finally sank in

She slowly opened the door
Only to find the bride curled up on the floor
“Elsie, are you okay?”
“It’s not fair! He should be here today!”
Ellie held back her tears as she tried to find the words to say
But she understood, no father should miss their daughter’s wedding day
She wrapped her arms around her tight
She expected a breakdown at some point that night
Ellie knelt down and pulled Elise near
Then softly whispered, “He is, he is here…
…he may not be here to walk you down the aisle but heaven has the perfect view, the perfect view for Daddy to see you say ‘I do’”

The wedding started off with a bit of a delay
But the rest was perfect, in almost every way


“Today was beautiful, I’m certain you would’ve cried
Can’t believe our baby girl got married tonight
She was the last one, they’re all officially on their own
Now I have to go back to an empty home
How do I go back there? What am I supposed to do?
It’s not fair Emmett, I should be sharing this time with you”

Ellie’s Disaster

Emmett was a great man with a troubled past
“You’re just going to end up just like your dad”
Those words he would never allow to come to pass
His father was a great guy, truly loving and kind
But when he got to drinking, he’d really lose his mind
Fist fighting with his wife, cursing at the children
It was hard to remember that the alcohol was the reason
He remembers very vividly prying them apart
Seeing his mother all bruised up really broke his heart
His father left that day, never to be seen again
He thought it marked a new start
But it was really the beginning of the end
Later that year his sister took her own life
Two months later alcohol became his mother’s vice
Ironic, isn’t it?
Actually, it’s full circle
Began with a glass of vodka, ended with one too
To stop this cycle, he knew what he had to do
Lakewood was the town
A place light would surely abound
A place the darkness would cease to exist
A place he could truly persist
A place where he would finally be free
At least initially, that’s how it seemed
He saw her coming, the car going faster and faster
Before he knew it, he was witnessing Ellie’s disaster
Over the cliff her car dove and with it all the wounds of his past exposed

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While Ellie Sleeps

Day One
Her body full of bruises
Her spirit surely shattered
But she was still here, that is what matters
Drifting in and out of sleep
The only clear sound is when the heart monitor beeps
A sudden chill down her spine when she realizes, “That pulse…it’s mine!”
Instantly her tears start to stream
I shouldn’t be here! I did it! I was free! I shouldn’t be here! Why didn’t You take me?”

Day Three
Coma, that’s what the doctors call it
An extended unconscious state
No way of truly knowing her fate

Day Twelve
He holds her hand and silently prays
Asking God why He allowed their paths to cross that day
The image permanently sketched in his mind
Like a movie he’s watched a million times
He saw her in the distance, speeding down the street
When her car went over, he followed the streams
It lead him to a beach and there her body laid
To think he almost didn’t take his usual walk that day
Another man spotted her body and called 911
He sighed in relief unaware that their journey together had only just begun
Compelled by his need to know why
He told the medics he was a friend
But Ellie had never met this guy

Day Twenty-Five
He’s still by her side

Day Thirty 
The doctors strongly advise against keeping his hopes high
But something in him knew God didn’t want her to die
Suddenly her finger wiggled
His eyes opened wide, he let out a small giggle
She could feel the warmth of his hand on hers
But she cannot see, her vision is blurred
“Please wake up” she hears him say
Who is this man?
The answer to that is for another day

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Ellie’s Goodbye

She presses on the peddle ever so lightly
It picks up speed ever so slightly
She smiles as a breeze caresses her skin
She can see the sunshine start to dim
She presses down a little harder
Just a little farther
The dial passes 90
I’m in the clear, no one’s behind me
Faster, faster
Easily over 110
She was going so fast, she didn’t see the man up ahead
She clutches the wheel and takes a deep breath
An image that he will never forget
Over the cliff, she falls to her demise
Soon they will ask, “Why Ellie? Why?”

Eighteen hours later they break down her door
Searching for answers
But not prepared for what’s in store
“Look a letter!” one of them yelled
As she began to read to her knees she fell
If you’re reading this then I’m already gone
But the truth is I’ve already been dead for so very long
That night he took everything away
But now that never-ending nightmare can no longer replay
It’s okay to be sad, it’s okay to cry
I wish I could’ve held you as I said goodbye
Know that I’ll love you until my very last breath
I’ll still love you even in death

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“911, what’s your emergency?”
“A body! A body just washed ashore”
“Sir, what is your location?”
“Camp Nathan”
“Sir, could you….
“Oh my god!”
“Oh my God!!”
“Sir, are you alright?”
She’s still alive!”

Ellie’s Dream

There’s a small young girl, not even 10 years of age
She’s laying down in her bed with her blanket wrapped around her tight
She’s whispering
What is she whispering?
There are footsteps…
“Please not tonight”
The doorknob twists and creeps open
He walks in with a sinister smirk
She sees his shadow on the wall and begins to shake
“Please protect me” she whispers again
“Precious” his wicked voice whispers
She slowly begins to curl up in a ball
He closes the door behind him and chuckles
She lay there frozen
He rips the blanket off and begins to tug on her clothes
She tries to stop him but to avail
Instead he smiles again
He likes it when she fights back, it amuses him
He holds her down
She squirms
His pants are already at his feet and he wastes no time
He’s already forced himself inside her
Deeper and deeper with every second
She’s bleeding
She feels like something is ripping
She starts to cry as she screams, “Stop!”
But he just puts his hand over her mouth and goes deeper
“Stop” she muffles
Tears rolling down her face
But he doesn’t
In and out, in and out
Deeper and deeper each time
He stops for a second and takes deep breath as he looks at her with a grin
She covers her face with her small hands
He whispers something
She cringes in fear by the sound of his voice
He strokes her leg then pulls up his pants
He creeps open the door once more and disappears into the dark
She lay there in anguish
“I hate you God!” she cries “You never protect me!”

Ellie wakes up drenched in sweat. Her body trembling. Her heart thrashing. It’s completely silent but she could still hear the little girl crying out for help. She sits up and takes three deep breaths. It was the same dream for the fourth time this week. She walks to the bathroom, pats some water on her face, glimpses into the mirror and sees the little girl looking back at her. “Why didn’t He help me?” Ellie closes her eyes and starts to cry. It’s been years now and she’s still taunted by these vivid dreams. I know because Ellie is me.